Being an Empath….

I’ve known that I was an empath within the last 5-6, after starting this srlf-discovery journey. It’s always been there, but now I can name it, and know I’m not alone. I am very sensitive, highly attachment to loved ones, and caring strongly for everyone (including plants and animals). People thought I was weird growing up, making me feel that too. I feel others emotions in my heart and body. I care about everyone. Some of the traits of psychological definitions of empaths don’t apply. I love connection with others it’s the best thing in the world. If I’m able to make someone feel better in some way, or heal them… I love to do that. I love helping people. I’m able to feel someone’s intentions, to feel if they are lying. (None of this appliest to a narcissist, if they are targeting me. Narcissists feel no empathy and they suck their house out of others. Empaths are like a yummy fish and they are the shark. They hide their true self well and can charm anyone.)

The part that hurts is when I am around someone I know is bad. I feel this too. Narcissists, abusers, people that hurt or use people. Makes me feel awful. My ex husband’s ex wife came to live with us for a year and a half while we were married. Her energy is repulsive. She’s selfish, neglects her own children, very malicious and negative energy. No good intentions…..

This is why it hurt me so much to be around her for so long. And I expressed this repeatedly to my at the time husband, who just put her first. I stayed for a year and a half because the kids my stepkids. They are beautiful amazing little girls. While their biological mom and dayd completely ignored them…. Way off topic. I’m a healer, it feels good to help others, deep connections mean a lot to me.

How my ex friend on the other page broke me so much… For now. I lost the ability to trust anyone, even friends I’ve known for years. I am scared of getting close to anyone, when people say they want to be there for me, I don’t believe it. The harm he caused by ghosting me in the way that I told him hurts me the most… Has broken me in ways that has never happened before.

I am determined to heal. Just haven’t. He did more emotional damage than anyone. I was so vuknerable, my mom had 2 wks left to live, he said he needed space… Then became a ghost. He promised to be there for me through my mom’s death, and I wrote to him, saying I’m in crisis please….. And ignored me. Even though this is intention cruelty I don’t feel anything but compassion and love for him

My sister.? 🤦🏼‍♀️ I’ve come to the realization she’s been verbally abusive to me for 22 years. I finally told her if you can’t treat me with respect and stop calling me names, I’ll leave. She did it a few other times and I’m not talking to her. Her behavior towards me is cruel. Don’t think she realizes how much it has hurt me. I’ve only ever supported her and had compassion. She might not able to feel empathy, truth is I don’t know her issue but they are here. She has a degree in psychology, but she cheated on all the tests so it’s not surprised she learned nothing. She’s out of my life until she can be respectful. I’ve had enough. Even when I sent her a medical news article about what an Empath is, she didn’t read it and thinks I’m crazy. She is not good for me. She might be 1 of 2 family left but she hurts me only.

Empath article:

Your Super Serious Title is: The Planetary Healer Empath

Your Total Score: 72 out of 80
Your Out of Control Healer Score: 9 out of 10
Your Protection Tools Score: 21 out of 25
How Much You Mirror Others Unconsciously Score: 13 out of 15
Your Appreciation for Nature Score: 10 out of 10

You scored extremely high on the overall results. You are definitely an empath. 

You are highly intuitive and can almost always tell when people are lying. You may want to look into getting energy work and healing done on your second chakra. Usually people that need to be around water all the time have blocks in their second chakras. You love nature and unconsciously understand its healing effects — which is a general, but strong indicator that you are an empath. You have a deep love and appreciation for nature. You recognize the sacred expression of all beings. You are truly wise. But you have a wonderful ability to sway and change the moods, energies, atmospheres, and environments around you. 

You need to work on differentiating other people’s energy from yours. Learning how to run your energy will help. You scored fairly poor on the “Mirroring Others Unconsciously” portion of the quiz. It looks like you have a tendency to mirror other people and their energy. Your score indicates that you would benefit from learning to recognize your own energy and learning to run it through your body, rather than running your friend’s or family’s energy. 

You scored pretty low on the “Has Protection Tools” section of the quiz. Yikes! You need to learn some empathic protection tools! Starting with an aura mirror! You are so caring and loving that you put others before yourself — to your detriment. You are most likely an out of control healer. You would benefit from energy work and empath tools for releasing guilt and responsibility.

https://21ninety.com/amp/15-things-empathic-friend-wants-know

https://www.healthline.com/health/what-is-an-empath#need-for-rest

https://highlysensitiverefuge.com/empath-signs/

https://life.krystalandco.com/blog/empaths-problematic-friendships/

More random Empath tests. Not that I didn’t know it but it’s more to try to explain to someone what it is