I am sensitive, sure. The amount of armor and toughness completely depends on context.
At my job, out of necessity, they think I’m aggressive, a force of nature. (Who is this girl she sounds tough lol)
With the general public I’m kind but fairly tough, I’ve worked over the years so s typical stranger can’t make me cry… (Yep that took years of work 😅)
With my loved ones, I’m vulnerable. However if I actually trust you, I have zero…. Zero defenses. I’m not ready for a fight, I’m only prepared to take care of, give affection and love.
This makes for wonderful happy relationships but if someone is trying to end a relationship it definitely gives them a lot of reason. I’m an enneagram 9. The peacemaker. Conflict makes my tummy hurt so much.
I’m never ready for a fight or an argument on an emotional basis with someone I love and trust. Sb intellectual debate, I’m down, at the drop of a hat. But if it is something that impacts my relationship, I’m a stuttering fool.
Is it that complete vulnerability doesn’t leave room for defenses? Do I have to pack away and shift the ratio?
I think Alex operates at 98% defense abd 2% vulnerability if he really, really trusts you. 😂😂😂. I’m a big, mushy, open ball of vulnerable. And low and behold, he’s tough, he doesn’t get hurt. I get blindsided and heartbroken, by people I trust so much.
Maybe an influx of jade into my system is about time.
Inspiration 