I have 2 people in this world that I love and trust with my whole heart. Nick and Alex. Nick is so happy I am here. That makes me very happy.
Last month I told Alex that when he has to go back to New York I would be there for him to take care of anything I could for him. He has a hard road ahead of him there. He is the strongest person I know, yet last time New York broke him. Next time he goes, he will be dealing with all that, plus funeral arrangements and who knows what else.
It is true that this time I won’t be his girlfriend, however I feel so much later to him than I was when I was his girlfriend.
He told me he was sad that next day, thinking about New York. Not sure he connected it to me telling him I would help, but I knew it. So I won’t tell him this until it’s time.
When he goes back, I’m going to offer to go with him, at least for a few weeks, when he needs the most help. He will never actually admit he needs help though. I want to be his anchor, I want to remind him of the sunshine. To take care of arrangements and other things, and to keep the light in his life when he’s surrounded by darkness.
He’s done so much for me, he means so much to me. This is something I can and want to do for him, and I think it will make all the difference.
Inspiration 