Came to some realizations yesterday.
I'm over Matt, I've moved on.
I'm in love with Alex, and he doesn't doesn't feel the same.
I lean towards monogamy, because when I fall in love, it's very deep and special.
My boyfriend, Nick, in California, is completely polyamorous. He's the most understanding person I've ever met. I'm very lucky to have met him.
It's unrealistic to hold onto feelings for someone who doesn't feel the same, but I finally understand why people don't remain friends after they break up. It's hard to be around someone you love, who doesn't want you.
I think I might have to take a break, try to let go of what isn't mine.
My mom called me boy crazy when I was in my 20s. 😅
Alex inspires me to be better and do better. He's a very positive influence. He has my back.
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